Simple Pleasures

Yesterday, I finally had the urge to clean my small room. Well, who wouldn't after realizing that there are no more room left to put my things except the floor. After two hours of sorting through old trash, useless memorabilia and keepsakes, I've finally cleared my desk, bookcase and night table. All it needs now is new bed, sorting out the very old clothes in my closet and remove that antique full length mirror once and for all. Mental note: don't tell mom I'm moving away the old stuff to charity because she think she is charity.

Today, my mom decided to swap her portable CD cassette player for my gold Anne Klein watch (my first expensive investment when I started to work). Of course, I didn't think twice taking it. I've been asking her to give the player eons ago since she is no longer using it. After having it, I've played some of my CD collections I've brought home after spring cleaning my desk in the office a week ago. It was then I realized that I should have invested on original CDs as the pirated and even copied ones are echoing the lyrics far too many times.

Given all these changes, I think my bedroom is now more habitable than before. A place to hang out from now on aside from the living room I used to inhabit during lull hours.

A friend of mine has made me realize one thing: Being "not ready" is not an excuse to get out of the relationship. In fact, it's BS. If given the circumstances, one should NOT get involved in the relationship to begin with. Getting into the relationship always has its risks and people fall in-love despite of such risks because of how much they strongly feel about it.

"Lead us not to temptation but deliver us from evil...."

I never prayed so sincerely for so many months now. In fact, I prayed fervently last night before I went to sleep with the rosary. I prayed that I will no longer be haunted with temptations that surrounded me. Lately, Dirty old men asking me out. An old crush getting into my nerves. Men are starting to look cute with a x bottles of beer. Spanish conversations with an ex. Sa totoo lang, I'm through with my pilya days and yet God has a funny way of showing me the glimpse of my old life.

Luckily, they all went away. Dirty old men stopped hawking me. Found old crush being uber sweet to his girlfriend. Migraine starting to kick in with certain amounts of alcohol. And my ex is not really proficient with spanish after all.

Close call.

This was Ryan Cayabyab's acceptance speech during the 12 Gawad CCP Para sa Sining award. It's funny, but at the same time a worthwhile list of instructions for wannabes.

“Ang mga Natutunan Ko Hanggang Kahapon Bilang Isang Manunulat ng Musika:

1. Walang mangyayari kung nakatitig ka lang sa labas ng bintana habang naghihintay ng inspirasyon. Malimit na ito ay hindi dumarating.

2. Kapag mayroon ka nang naumpisahan, tapusin mo.

3. Kapag may pumansin sa nilikha mo dalawang bagay lang ang gagawin mo: una, kung ito ay pinuri, ngumiti ka; pangalawa, pag ito'y binatikos, humalakhak ka. Huwag mong pakawalan ang yong bait. Mabuti nga't napansin ang likha mo.

4. Lumikha ka lang ng lumikha. Tumigil ka lang pag patay ka na. Siyempre.

5. Huwag mong liliitin ang mga nilikha mo. Minsan ito ay may kapangyarihan na hindi mo matalos.

6. Sa kabilang dako naman, huwag ka nang magmalaki. Maraming mas magaling kaysa sa
iyo, kung hindi ngayon, sa mga darating pang panahon.

7. Hindi sa iyo ang mga nilikha mo. Ginamit ka lang na isang daan upang maisalarawan mo ang kalagayan ng iyong kapanahunan at kapaligiran.

8. Magpasalamat ka sa mga taong nagpakita sa iyo ng daan.

9. Magpasalamat ka sa bayan mo na iyong kinalakhan.

10. Magpasalamat ka sa Diyos dahil ikaw ay humihinga at ikaw ay isang alagad ng sining!

May pahabol pang isa: Hangga't maaari, huwag ka nang dumakdak ng dumakdak, tugtugin mo na lang.”

My brother and I has devised a scheme to motivate ourselves to start a healthy lifestyle. Starting this week, we will go out to jog twice a week at 6am. Knowing how lazy we are getting up so early in the morning, we agreed that whoever fails to getup at 6am in the morning will be fined 50 bucks and will be counted in the penalty count. By the end of his semestral break, whoever gets the less penalty points will get the pot.

Funny how we trick ourselves to be motivated to do the things we're supposed to do.

Before we get started with the jogging routine, I already gave myself a headstart. Yesterday, I went to the gym, which I haven't visited for over two months, and done an hour of cardio and a sauna afterwards. Saunas help to relieve your muscles and prevent the soreness the day after despite of being short of breath inside the sauna room at 41 degrees celsius.

The routine somehow rejuvinated me and it felt really good. Thus, I decided to give myself that long overdue foot spa before Gladys birthday gimmick tonight. But the thing is, I felt so good that I lost track of time and thus became late for my friend's party.

But a nice pedicure and well deserved pampering is a good excuse to be late. I'm sure any girl would understand that.

My pinoyjug friend told me to give the virtual syota texting service a test drive. For the past two weeks, pati din siya marunong magtampo pag hindi ako nagtetext.

Kakaiba.......

After the lengthy 8 hour ride, seeing the breathtaking beauty of an unadulterated beach and swimming in it is definitely worth it.

This is an article i've written a couple of months ago but not really prepared to share it publicly then (even though nobody is browsing through this site, i'm still cautious nevertheless). I still have a couple of unpublished ones and good ones too but somehow sharing the inner makings of my mind is not my normal cup of tea. Anyway read on.....

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An ex who is also a friend texted me saying that I'm putting him out of the loop of the news the one of our common friends are getting married and forgetting his birthday last month.  I apologized and teased him for making a big deal out of it and turning to be such a fag. 

This thing with exes,  you just don't know whether to include them in the group with your common friends or exclude him out of respect for your boyfriend and his girlfriend.  I feel that balance is the crucial in maintaining post-relationships which requires total trust from your current relationship and complete assurance that you and your ex no longer harboring second thoughts a.k.a. what-might-have-beens. 

We're often heard the cliché, "Friends can be lovers but lovers cannot be friends anymore" which I think doesn't apply on all ex-lovers.  If they broke up based on a mutual decision without any ill-feelings, most likely they will be able to maintain a harmonious post-relationship.  Otherwise, they would be bitter and cannot hold a healthy relationship. 

As usual, he would promise to drop by Makati, meet up for coffee and talked about old times for the nth time which I really doubt if that would ever happen.  In my opinion, empty promises are products of all "has-beens" who has other priorities in life than you, thus the term "has-been".  And I, like all "has-beens", know better than to expect for the empty promise to ever happen at all.  Nevertheless, it feels good to hear from someone who never forgets even though you were a "has-been".

Only 4 more hours till i get ready for my Bolinao trip, I'm still restless but my eyes are getting heavy though.

If there is something I'd like to do right now, it is to get my hands on the linux box and try out the linux command lines that i've gotten from this site: http://www.linuxdevcenter.com/linux/cmd/

A few hours ago, I just figured out how to solve one of the bugs in the applications i'm working in. Sad to say, I'm connected from home with no vpn access so i'm stuck with my own imagination to simulate the possibilities of my new found solution.

Also a few hours ago, I was able to reconnect with two of my friends and talked about the complications and intricities of relationships.

You see, there is so much you can do with a restless mind and so many sleepless hours to burn.

Now time for beddy bye. Good night!

Tomorrow, I'm going to embark on my trip to Bolinao with my bestfriend along with our other friends. I'm totally restless because of the sheer idea that I'd be disconnected from my world for 3 days. My cellphone is my only means of connecting to my work, my loved ones and my life.

Although I needed this long deserve break, being engaged in so much activity for the longest time has its way of getting into your system that makes idle time such a sin. Thus, my vacation leaves are scarce and my body an overworked nightmare: fatigued, over-weight and crying for detox.

Getting away from the city is a totally new thing, really. As much as I love seeing mountains and clear bodies of water, the fear of not finding the things that I can get it easily in the city such as cash, connectivity and convenience. The idea of being in the place with no electricity totally unnerves me. What more if I'd be in a remote town with no internet connection, no cellphone signal and no McDonalds. Perhaps if I were young and open for adventure, I could have entertained the idea of living in a tent and live the life of a forest dweller but I guess i'm too old for it.

But anyway, thinking like this is driving me crazy. I'll be going to the trip anyway and get drunk. Wish me luck.